Gone!

Every thing just gone within one day!! The room that i stay had turn me into nightmare. The puzzle we done together, have pointless meaning. My wall, he did said if one day he will have to leave me i will have to knock down the wall. So he cannot and wont leave me. What now? If i can i will like to burn down the house.
Why Why Why...........
What did i done wrong? These are the five time that i get the same thing happened.
All just change their attitude toward me, i am so disappointed with myself, i hate myself. Well you love the wrong person, you just haven meet the right guy. How would you know if you dun try? Find some one to love you more thn you love him more. How?
Everyone is the same, they love me more, but after awhile they just change when i started to love them more. Choose how to choose, where by ppl also choosing me.
Mum said i will meet the person when i am 26 going to 27. Than what now, i met him during the time. We started, every thing was so nice and smooth. After a few mths it just change. Why am i gong thur all these. When these thing going to stop for me. Iszit i have to end my life thn i will not go thur all these? I pray so hard every year every day. Than what i get? I did so much good than what i get?
I just hate myself. It had been so many times. And ppl will just asked me to be strong. But they just dun understand. The thing keep happening and all is the same ending. When ever i am getting into a relationship i am so scare. I cried that it will happened again. I am not wrong it happened again. A person that have been going thur the same problem all the time, who will have to heart to be strong. I am disappointed very disappointed. I just hate myself! They said that is life, if you are repeating the same thing again and again, wont you find something is wrong? Wont you want to find out why? But who can give me the ans??