Working

Have not enough sleep, can't sleep in the night.. and I've to wake up at 7.30am..
So thur out the night, I'm half asleep and half awake..

So is it wrong for me to stop him from viewing her blog and pix??
My rational...
Becoz i know he still miss her, the more he see the more he think..
The more he can't forget about her..
I dunno am I doing the right thing??

Saw his nick in msn, writing that he has forgotten what is happiness and happiness has slowly forgotten... So is it becoz that he can't know what she's doing that's why he's not happy? Or due to his work?? Or me??
After see the nick, i feel unhappy too.. becoz some how i feel is about her..
The past few week, he did said something like why I can see others ppl pix and blog but not him.. Not i dun wantt o let him see, if after he see her pix and he can control his own feeling then go ahead, but the problem is.. he can't..


I am sad that i can't make him happy, how can i make him happy??
I'm in the age or married.. but than I've not started to work and earn my income..
I expected myself to get marry at 30s..
I am asking for too much? Am i stressing him to marry me?
I did asked if he want to marry me, it took sometime for him to ans me..
So i guess, he's still waiting for someone.. or maybe just not me..

I'm always wondering, how do can i make the guy i date, to make him want to marry me and want me to be with them forever?? I guess, I'm just bad at that.. I always can't make ppl feel to want me.. I am a trouble maker and i always give nonsense that they can't stand me.. I am just bore and just wanting to get some attention..
How to make someone to love you as much as you love them??
I think, I'm a failure...

平日

Been age I last Blog...
Been busy with attachment, party, accompany frens and bf.. My holiday ending soon..
Been busy meeting up and catching up with fren...
Was happy with baby, thu i know he's busy with his work, yet he still make up some time for me..
Nothing special recently.. Bday coming, so do baby 的。。
But i have some $$ problem.. need to save for daily living..
Been sleeping very early every day.. early like 4am in the morning..
My days in school will be dead..
I had this funny dream... I dreamt about me being with another guy.. but yet the feeling is not right.. I'll keep looking for someone that is right, and i just can't find that person, till I woke up from my dream... Ha is my baby.. Mr Liao..

When to watch movie with him, and he's really tired.. fell asleep in the movie..
Poor him.. looking at him when he's sleeping.. he look so cute hahaha..
Like to look at him when he's sleeping.. Just like the way he like to look at me when i was sleeping.. Becoz that is the moment when i am the most quiet hahaha...

School coming.. must work hard and study smart...