Distress

Wed, distress...
two things down, adult nursing and practical theory test down..
But i have four more test to come...

But i enjoy my dinner with my nabey friends.. we eat, we laugh, we joke, we impair after eating too full.. haha
It was a funny night.. I ate so much seafood.. haha so shiok... hahah
But my car kana all the bird faeces.. wah lau.. lucky it was raining heavily in the night.. to help me to wash away the faeces...
If not my nabey friends want to wear bikini to wash my car for me.. hahah

Today went to charles & keith warehouse sales... kind of disappointed..
Very messy, lots of people and the things is every where and some of the things is like not even under them. I only manage to buy two shoes. One for myself and the other for my mum.
Hmmm everyone of us only bought a few stuff..
Today Zac called me... hmmm asked me about the zoo number and he told me, he wanted to go for private diploma... in order to work in the zoo...
Hope he can make it.

Baby are so busy this few days.. din really get to talk to him..
Got to study hard for the coming test... stress stress stress

Sunday

Today my baby bought me a sun glass.. So happy and i love the sun glass... never expect him to buy for me. Heheh Thank you baby...

I know you dun feel like going out on the night before, but i really need to go out and relax myself and mind. Not very smooth riding in work.. Made lots of mistake becoz of my blurriness and my carelessness. Hainz been trying very hard to improve.. and to be smart. But i am always doing the wrong thing. I feel so bad about myself.
Went to watch Madagascar... as funny cartoon show.. not bad.. but i know baby you dun like to watch... thanks for the accompany.. And baby, hahah force me to read chinese.. and make him want to vomit blood... ok i will try to improve in that..
But i am really not good in memorizing. I am such a forgetful person. I need to do things step by step now.. how come?? I use to be very flexi in doing things.
What happened to me??

Recently in love with the Taiwan drama.. 不良笑花 is becoz 潘玮柏 is like baby, and 杨丞琳 is like me.. Becoz in the drama.. 潘玮柏 always scold 杨丞琳... is just like how my Mr Tommy scold me... and i am the one always doing the stupid stuff and weird stuff.. and i am always the noise one, and baby always asked me to shut up or be keep quiet.. haha

Hianz.. I still need to work hard for my study and project and work.. and to be a good girlfriend.

Sight Problem

Today my sight is really funny??
Is not blur vision, but is like the muscle of of eyes getting tired.
When i look at the thing or person. The image of them just go to a side or the image of them join together.
I tried to look away to see others things, just not to focus too much on the object for too long. So stress up with the project, every thing I did just dun goes rite.
Keep editing the slide, really feel so down when doing the slide.
I just adjust the slide by what was told to me, but it turn out that i did the wrong thing again and was qus again, why is this slide here and there?
Really dunno what to do, feel like throwing my lap top away. Feel that i am not a good leader, or i just can't give good ideas or my ideas just dun make sense or i am just stupid. I am not clever and not good at anything. Expect singing and driving.
Other than that i am not good in anything. So tired...
I feel do stupid. I can't concentrate, i tired.. but i just dunno why, i just can't be the time i am in ITE?

Test test test

So stress and tired of test..
So many test and project...
I feel so lost with the project.. Not know what to do with it, and how to make it rite to present?

So worried... about the exam and coming test. I so worried that i can't catch up with my classmate, and I can't cope with the exam and test and project and the coming attachment..
4 weeks... medical posting.. and the stupid posting will be during CNY. After the last week of posting will be exam..
Where got time to study when you're celebrating cny.. and was during your clinical posting. And I have my part time job. To earn my income...

I need to relax..
I must tell myself to relax..
I missed my baby.. and he will be so busy after today.. becoz his gay partner is back.
And he will be busy doing his stuffs and going to Hong Kong soon...
Hianz.. our first xmas and new year and Cny. He wont be around. He will have to go back to Taiwan for cny. I hope that i can go with him, but i dun have the cash.. i dun have the time. To make myself feel better that he wont be around, i will keep telling myself, he is going back home and working on with his business. So must not give him stress... I can do it.. we will have lots of time next time. Hianz.. but who know what will happened to next day.. ??

When are you going to cook for me??

Nov...Mind

Blur blur blur,
I am just as blur as what i name myself.. Just can't be smart..
I am stupid.. after I've stop my job at home.. My memory getting bad to worst...
My brain is block... I can't think and be more creative.
Arghh.. I feel so useless...

My Piggy..
Today make me sad... He did something that made me feel sad and scare.

I just want his heart with me, and totally and whole of his heart with me. Even if he is far away from me. Baby.. read my blog..

Test coming, Projects, Exam, Baby, work... so many things..
Wedding dinner, money.. hianz..
I hate it rite now, when i am not working, no income, wedding invite keep coming...
So tired.. Every one around me seem to be so smart.. I just can't be smart..

I am your stupid baby...I am the monkey and dunno how to keep quite and very active.. Becoz that is the real me... I am just like a small girl.. even if my age keep growing... but i have to grow.. hianz.. so sianz...

I just want to finish my study, and get on to my career and earn money and time for my baby and family..