Nov...Mind

Blur blur blur,
I am just as blur as what i name myself.. Just can't be smart..
I am stupid.. after I've stop my job at home.. My memory getting bad to worst...
My brain is block... I can't think and be more creative.
Arghh.. I feel so useless...

My Piggy..
Today make me sad... He did something that made me feel sad and scare.

I just want his heart with me, and totally and whole of his heart with me. Even if he is far away from me. Baby.. read my blog..

Test coming, Projects, Exam, Baby, work... so many things..
Wedding dinner, money.. hianz..
I hate it rite now, when i am not working, no income, wedding invite keep coming...
So tired.. Every one around me seem to be so smart.. I just can't be smart..

I am your stupid baby...I am the monkey and dunno how to keep quite and very active.. Becoz that is the real me... I am just like a small girl.. even if my age keep growing... but i have to grow.. hianz.. so sianz...

I just want to finish my study, and get on to my career and earn money and time for my baby and family..