Blank in mind

Blank blank blank. You can said i am weak, you can said i am useless, you can said the person i know of you, is not what i know now. You can said i am hopeless, you can said no point talking to me, becoz i wont listen. You can said no chances for us, and we will never get back together. You can said i am stupid, you can said i am heartless for my family, you can said what ever you want to say.
I am blank now, nothing in my mind, i live blankly everyday now. I reach home i be good to my parents, i go out with my friend if they asked me out. But my face will never have the smile. I dunno why? I just can't put any smile now, even if i smile will be just a while. I am blank, my whole life is control, now i am relise but yet i am blank. I feel ligther, i feel comfortable staying home now. But i am blank totally blank for now. I can't see myself in any place now. I am weak, i am useless, you may dun like me, to be so useless, you may dun like me to be not strong. When a person get tired to be strong, that mean the person is giving up. Even what ever others said it will never go into that person mind, because she is blank. She hope to find a better person to be with her for the rest of her life, she want a normal life, yet she waited for so long, nothing come to her. And she end her abdnormal life. Now she is with her new life but she has turn no movitation to do that and restart her new life. She just want to end it, not to let her parent do so much that make them so tired. She end it because she dun want to see her family not like a family. She end it becasue she dun want to hold these burnden any long. She is lost, her believe and hopes has gone. She see no hope and believe nothing now. Do any one understand? The only thing she want, is just someone she love to love her and be happy with her, she want to start a fresh becoz she is a normal person now, she wants to have another chances, but do the person going to give her? if the person dun give her than what she is going to do? Guess that her last hope! I dunno, blank, she is thinking too much! But she can't help it, that is her. That what they created her!