.......Better or Not??

Dunno am i better or not?? Dreaming every day, about the same person.....
Am i that scarly? Am i that irritating? Am i that not understanding?
When to the family chalet, feel so happy, and wanted and welcome by the family.
Feel so nice, how good if everything is fine. Feel so weird, when i reach the chalet, but after awhile, i feel better, by the mother care, the auntie care and welcome. I send the parents back, and uncle want me to stay at their place if i am working near some where their place. So nice of them, which they know i no longer with him. Very funny?? Is almost a mth, but my mind still wondering. I am more happy when i am in hospital because i have things to do. But at the same time i am tired.
Am i picking up myself? Or just slowly... I wanted to go holiday, maybe cambodia will be good, becoz is cheaper or perth too ex.. Now still thinking. I feel so tie up by my mum, i want to be alone and she keep wanting to go oversea with me. I dun like i want to be alone.