Moody sunday

It was a sunday, and i been staying in my room for the whole day.. Watching dramas and movies..
What am i doing at home? and wasting my time in my room.. I sleep and eat and watch movie, i guess i have talk less than 10 words for today.
Is a mother day, but thn we have such a long time never been celebrating this day.
When was the last time?? I can't remember..
Since brother had got married, and my three years bf left me, we have never celebrate and have offend family gathering..
Life is so different from the past, i start to appreciate what i have last time, when i have a good relationship with my family and a good bolding.
All this has gone far away from me..

I been waiting for him to call me, but thn is already 10+ no call yet.. still waiting, wanted to call, but why do i have to be the one who always looking for him and call and see how's he's doing..
Having headache now... i hope i can sleep to night...
Less and less things to talk about.. less and less place to go, less and less thing to do.. Am i boring or is the place i live is boring??
I got a bad feeling.... just feel like things going to end soon, or i am thinking too much..
So tired... when can i been appreciate?? mum know that i am not happy..
Still waiting....