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My almost one year is not better thn the 3mths...

Feel kind if useless...
Guess he know that i am not happy....
Maybe he has stop seeing my blog too...
My point of writ ting this is the let him know, instead of me telling him
But thn this blog has slowly become my unhappy blog, i notice that I've wrote things that i am not happy with in here...

I am speechless...
Having flu still.....
Getting really old... no longer young...if i'll have to get a new guy.. what will happened to me??I dun want to go thur all the shit any more.. I am tired of all this stupid irritating stuff...if i will have to be in my next life, i wish i would be a bird that can fly anywhere i like...
I know, i'll never get anyone that love me more thn i love them... That my life... i am born with the suay thing with me.. i blame no one....

Is always easy to say thn be done...
I just need some accompany to waste my time during my school period..
After i have done with my study... I will be busy with just my work... work and work..
Life is really tired, tired of going around the same thing again and again..
Some of my fren told me, me having a bf like not having one...
Maybe i forcing myself too hard...
Should i let it go?? or should i not?? I am just too stubborn to let it go.. and i dun let go that easily and i know i can't... it will take me harder and harder to let go each and every time..


I have to move on with my life no matter what shit am i getting now.. even now with him...
I keep owning others.. when were be that others that own me coming?? Maybe no one own me at all..

I dunno what am i writting.. I am mean while lost....
Singapore flighting against China..
But thn, singapore has been flighting for so long, singapore has never been winning anything... how sad..