When am i able to go back to that place again?

Use to go to that place every weekend, and kinda of a routine every week. Without any failed. But that place had become a very sad and bad memories for me to go.
Last time, use to be there to do the things i like, SKATE! To me, the place if a place for people to relax.. but seem now and than, after hanging there for long and knowing lots of friends and people there.. That is a place full gossip and more.
I'm sad to know that. No wander, people who use to be the regular there had stop going there offend. I know is kind of no life going there every weekend. Because that's the only thing i can spend my stupid time always, without thinking much and doing much stuff. I use to like that place a lots a lots, but not now.
Could i said i had step the wrong step starting going on with that person? I think, i am, i should just stay what I'm like in the past and dun get myself in any trouble. Seem like i am getting myself lots of trouble and gossiping now. I hate that!
Even my close friends over there. I started to stay away.. i dunno why? Maybe because i have no face to face them or maybe i just dun wan to get myself another gossip or hear ding what others say. Becoz i know i had did something, not very right.
And i know, and i just dun want to hear people telling me and repeating the same thing again and again. Becoz what had done had been done and cannot be undone.. If their unable to be undone, i guess I'll be a more happier person right now. I though these year will be a good year for me, but i guess not, it had becoming worst i guess. I hate to go there now, because i want to avoid lots of stuffs.
Getting myself lots of problem and trouble. How wish i would never be done that wrong step..
Sorry to my friends, not i dun wan to join u all there but just i dun feel comfortable going there and i dun feel any happy and any point to go down there. Reason being, people over there that make me sick and tired. Not all but most of them. Hope my friends who are reading these can understand. Still i can go for movie and coffee.