Wander world!!

A bore day over!! Life Life Life, How wish i could be that simple as last time!
Agree with someone who said who want to have a simple life! Ya! with me, might not have a simple life. Because my life have change when i was 19. Life change, the whole life change, plan change, mind change, character change.. everything change.
I missed the days, when i was 20... I am so simple and straight forward, i dun think that much, i dun worry that much too.
Friends told me, i look more happier when i was in my 20, i guess i agree with that.
But i can't be that me anymore. Tired really tired with all the praying stuff, that make me a very different person that make me a so call abnormal girl.
I kinda of no goal in my life, because my believe that i believe had make me not to feel like believing it. Confusing, confusing....
Him, had already out of my life, he's a nice guy but had true really bad impression to me. I tried to believe myself of him being a nice guy, but things turn out bad...
and human are really scary... maybe i could say.. he's just not handling the situation well or i could even say he's not handling at all... turning away from the problem and even dun bother like nothing had happened.

Problem now, are all on myself.. i can't solve, even friends talk to me, and how they console me...
Maybe i have been Thur the same old thing again and again, that made me numb and made me hear enough of same old console again and again.
Ecp.. hahaha, should be a nice and relaxing park, for family for friends for relatives for all kinds of gathering. But yet.. it look scary to me now... due to the usual people hanging around there. Anti that place for a moment or maybe not a moment.. hmm dunno??
Did nothing for the past few years or maybe i did but nothing that made me proud!!
I've been sleeping and slacking and learning guitar.. to past my time..
Time really very hard to spend... boring too.. Friends are married, having children..
Me, still hanging there...When will i see my Sun shin?? I have been waiting for long..
Why do they keep telling me three years? I been waiting and waiting..
Find how to find when u have no feeling.. how would i know the person will be the one? How would i know.. my time had come, how would i know.. Guess i'll keep repeating myself again and agian.