2010

Happy New Year,
I wish my parents to be healthy, wish my brother have a successful Carree, wish baby have a successful career, wish my whole family have a smooth sailing year.

Today is 3rd day of 2010, and i have been at home for 3rd day since 2010, becoz i was sick.. what a year..

Hope i and finish my course asap, cant wait to work..
And earn money...
Really bore at home...

Dec coming

Today, been doing the project for the whole day, and was waken up by a called, that make me very pissed...
Always gave me rubbish for the project.. not going to say anything about his slide today. Tml let the rest see what rubbish he is giving again.

Baby are loving me more and more, I can feel that hehe.. and i enjoy cooking together with me. End day the food taste so nice.. with our efforts.
When to watch New Moon, the ending was suck..
But i still enjoy my day, becoz is with baby..
I really hope one of the day baby can join my family for a dinner. It was since so long i have family dinner.

Recently i came across a few type of person, one of them is my colleague. Working with her is stress, becoz she is messy, keep asking me to do this and do that. Where by i haven even finish any of them. And afraid to take responsibility in work, she is a nice person, just that the way she work... hianz no team work..

Another counter, recently know someone quite close, and she really know how to spend where by she is not earning.. after seeing the way she behave, eventually i told myself, i will not spend unless i am earning. Even don i am using my parents money but i dun any how spend the money. I only spend when i am earning.
I am working part time now, but i also worried to be over spend.

Another year coming

Another year is coming, that was so fast..
I am getting another year older.. and was so fast.. Just can't wait to finish my study and start working.

I seen so long I've been blogging.
ok let me update what ever i can remember.
1st, my family have a new member.. A baby girl has come to my family, so total of members right now is 7. Baby girl look much more like my brother, but than one more member one more burden. My bro will have a hard time, as in $$$ will be very tie.

2nd, Baby's sister came to Singapore for study. And has bought her out for the past one mth. And just a short few mths, there is so many things that happened. Baby father when for opt for his eyes. But good thing he is recovering now, but still there is another problem, $$$.

3rd, I'm working now in a clinic as a part timer. To earn some income for living.
Day of spending are getting high and i also dun want to waste my time on doing nothing at home. And school work are not so heavy too. Thanks to Amy Tan that bought be to that clinic. Clinic was small but full of different treatment. And was busy most of the time, is a good thing too. So that my time will easily pass.
Before the first time i went to join the clinic, we have a few staff, but now staff are getting lesser so i am getting more work to do. Is a good thing too haha becoz i got to earn.
El have left us, and Sharon when to gave birth, look like I am the most senior in that clinic but i only work in the night. Christina was consider the 2nd senior, but just feel that working with her is messy, she is not so organize and kind of always make mistake.

4th, me have started my school. So now are half way thur the project. I dunno why and when i have becoming the learner, becoz since like no one want to be and everyone just keep quite to avoid this role. Who asked me to be the eldest in the group. But thanks god i have quite a few nice and helpful group members.
We are starting on with our last year group project, which are going to do on sex education. Becoz now a days we notice that there are more and more youngest and teenagers getting unwanted pregnancy or even STD. Just recently i have a pt that came to our clinic, she is only 14 and she is pregnant. Dr asked why dun she use protection and the ans she gave was, under age can't get condom.
So we are going to Target and young ppl that bring awareness about std to them.

5th Baby has listen to me and change his room ceiling colour, hope it will bring him all the good luck. So happy that he is listening to me, and he is loving me more and more even don he is not buying me anything but i can feel that.
Although baby is not rich now and we are very save of spending now, but i feel happy and lovely. Wish baby all the best and many many good luck coming..

6th, my cousin daughter. She is only 10 and has found a tumor of 10cm in her liver.
So she is diagnose with CA. It was a shocking news to every body. I went to listen to her condition on yrt. She need to go for chemo for about a yr to make the tumor smaller. She is a very strong gal, when we were there to tell her about her condition. She didn't cried at all, she just keep it to herself, becoz she know that once she break down her family member will feel more worried about her.
I hope and wish that she will recover fast.
She is only 10 but her wheel power of living are very strong.
My cousin, she is always very stress and sad at this moment. First about the medical fees, 2nd about her daughter condition, 3rd about the work. It is very stress for her in this time of period and it will last her for a few year. Hope every thing will get over soon.

This next monday

We hit one year coming this Monday...
Kinda of slow...
This few weeks, been busy working and studying and nauing at home...
Went to work and i notice i make lots of mistake.. hianz... and the working hours is so long and there is nothing much to do.. ppl there are weird... or maybe everywhere is the same..
There is this auntie i think she is almost 70, she is in charge of the toilet.. she work from morning 8am till the park close which is 8pm.. she work everyday without fail.. she work for so long hours, and guest in the park really suck or i could say Singaporean suck, although i am born in Singapore.. but is really a shame...
end of the day, the toilet is full of rubbish and the auntie got to clean up the bloody toilet alone and the toilet is so big.. how come those ppl just cant throw the unwanted stuff to the rubbish bin?? And everyday she got to chase ppl out of the toilet before the park close.. and this ppl just take their own sweet time..
hianz...
I notice ppl who work there, most of them have family problem.. is a place like keeping ppl who are unwanted in other place.. but thn their all very nice ppl...
Specially Lee Yan.. she is such a nice gal.. becoz of her size ppl tend to look down on her.. but thn she is more thn her out look.
Recently MJ die... Is a waste but thn i was thinking... that god is fair...
Becoz god know that ppl dun really appreciate him so he took him away from us..
God dun want him to suffer that much.. and he is really suffering thur out his whole life.. therefore he spend so much in his whole life... to make himself happy..

I am not having school for this week becoz of the H1N1.. i think the school did the right thing.. but thn i dun like the elearning stuff... have problem downloading the stuff.. and they never give proper instruction..
Baby was sick.. hope he get well soon..
I knw he is tired yet he still go and watch transformer with me..
Transformer the best movie of the year.. really nice, i hardly want to watch a movie again in the cinema twice but thn this time i am going to watch again becoz it is really nice..

The longest two weeks..

This is the longest two weeks I ever had.. Every day since to pass so slow and so long.. Even when i sleep, I've been getting up very offend..
Saw his nick... keep himself in the box, thn back to hell..
What does all this mean????
You msg me, I feel like replying you but thn, i remember the thing you said to me, you feel so sianz when you saw the my msg.. so i stop myself from msging you...

What have i been doing? Goin out with fren, went clubbing, went to chill.. trying to pass my time.. I suppose to go for a family gathering on sat evening.. but thn i decided not to go... I know mum will be very disappointed that i never join them..
But i dun feel like going.. I dun feel good..
everyone is married with kid and have family.. the only one is me.. If i go they will start asking me, where is my bf and stuff.. when are you getting married and stuff.. I dun like it.. i hate it.. I never hide it from my mum.. i dun like this kind of gathering and i told her.. hope she understand...

The day is passing so slow.. so slow...

Days without you...

We've come to a concusion, not to see or heard from each other for 2 weeks, let each other cool down for the period of time.. to let us think thur, to let us know what we really want...
Today is only the 2nd day.. I started to miss you badly... the feeling of missing you is so different from the time that you're not in town..
I am missing with complicated thought..
What are you doing now? working? playing ball? watching drama? ktv at home? going out with fren? meeting? and do you miss me as i do?
The happiness moment that i had with you, was the genting trip.. I feel the love from you. Although it was only a two day one night trip.. but it seem to be very long for me..
The first night.. we were having our dinner in the room.. you're having your KFC.. and I am having my Maggie.. after our dinner.. we lay down on the bed and watch tv..
The feeling was great.. and we head to casino after that.. walking around the casino.. choosing which will be the best to win money...
Everything was so nice.. missed the two days one night with you..

I am worried about the outcome after this two weeks...
I dunno what to do to make it better??
the only thing is to wait... wait for the time..

Your Relationship Spread

Your View of Your Partner

Seven of Spades
Someone will offer you advice that is best not taken. Doing so will present currently unseen obstacles to your success.

Your Partner's View of You

Six of Clubs
Financial aid may become available to you in the near future. Don't be too proud to accept it.

Your Needs

Queen of Spades
This royal card represents a woman who could be either someone you love or a business rival. If she is next to the ace, nine or ten of spades, she may be a widow.

Your Partner's Needs

Two of Hearts
A warm, strong partnership. This is a very favorable card that indicates strength and support coming from a partner in your professional or personal life.

The Current State of Your Relationship

Ten of Diamonds
Happiness will soon come. Either something pleasant or joyful will happen or a situation will come to a happy conclusion.

The Path You Would Like to See Your Relationship Follow

Ace of Hearts
Problems and troubles you have been experiencing in the area of love and happiness should be lifting relatively soon.

The Path Your Partner Would Like to See Your Relationship Follow

Three of Clubs
Love and happiness; a successful marriage; a favorable long-term proposition. A second chance, particularly in an economical sense.

Aspects of Your Relationship to Consider

Jack of Diamonds
The Knight (Jack) of Diamonds represents hope or hopeful anticipation. It is especially meaningful when close to a royal card.

The Outcome

Four of Diamonds
This card represents a decision that must be made regarding a situation that is pulling you in many different ways. Consider all options carefully. This is not the time to make a careless mistake.