Thoughts

Is marriage important to me now??
Guess not that important anymore...
Why?
Ans :Maybe due to age not sure??
Do you like to attend friend wedding?
Ans : No!
Why?
Ans:Don't know? Maybe don't like the feeling seeing other happy marriage, or i just want to 逃避。But partly due to the life in Singapore now. Everything is so expensive and i am not earning much.. $$$ i think is the main issue..

My job!!!
Every mth of my paid is just enough for me to spend and save some for my further. Some time i even over spend, I work from monday to Sat, although my sat is a half day work but most of the time it turn out to be like a full day, And yet i earn so little. Some time i really wonder, ppl who work five day and yet they earn that much and they complaint that their earning is little..
Why dont I change my job since i am not happy with the paid?
Because is hard to find nice colleague to work with and nice boss.
Nothing is perfect in this world!

Do I want to get married??
I guess yes, but i dun want to put to much hope, i dun want to get disappointed.

What are your plan now for further?
Work.. work and work...
Earn as much as i can and save as much as i can.

Right now i feel like i am the only child in the family.
Although i have a brother.. but when my parent are sick.. he never bother to help..
I feel stressful.. I have to work too, i have already so little time for myself to rest, and yet i have to take care of my parents when their sick or having problem. I am facing alone..
Sometime i was thinking, what if i am married.. thn will my mum and dad still depend on me?
Because my brother has a family now, and she dun want to disturb him. Than how about my futher?????

So i guess i will not hope to be married... not hope to have a family..

Maybe that the reason why i does not like to attend wedding.

Other look at me, and telling me that i am having a very good life now.. ya from the outside I do may look good.
I drive a car, but belong to my parent.. I do have a bf that i dun think we were get married.
I do have a Carree that dun make me rich.

I feel that i am getting more and more lonely right now.. I feel more happy to lone at home doing my own staff imagine things that will not happened in my life. To 满足我的愿望。To make myself more happy.

Guess i am emo at this moment.. Just feel like writing something that what i am things now.. maybe the next moment i think differently.

I am getting more xiao qi now a days, not sure why.. maybe jealous of others who has better life thn me??
Life is getting hard now.. really...