My Doctor

Went to read of the Card in Perth, she told me.. i will meet someone that i not know, and he will be like a stranger to me. And it might be a Doctor....
Mum said 'you might know a doctor in furture??'

I have been closing up myself to lots of things.. I guess my dear friends.. you guys can sense that.. Sorry....

Trying to open up myself.. but very hard.. so phoia... I know you guys care.. Thank you....
I feel like i am making a fool of myself.. infront of him... which everything have really come till an end...
I lead a normal life now.. kinda of not use to it..
How would things be in furture if i am really with someone??

Is there really a Dr for me?? A real Dr that treat people??
But i have a though.. The Dr that could treat my wound in my heart...
That will be the Dr for me and not the real Dr that able to treat others.
Too much thing happened i would like to keep it slient.. Are he the real one for me??
That what the card said??? Someone that i will meet in the net and..............

No air air

Thanks Kat for the song, really about how i feel...
So hard to forget... My school number was his IC number and my password was my IC number.. I got to hold that number for the rest of my life..
Time, better in time...

Leona Lewis, Better in time

BETTER IN TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going
Coming
Thought I heard a knock(Whose there, Noone?)
Thinking that (I deserve it)
Now I have realised
That I really didn't knooOooOw

If you didn't notice
You mean everything (quickly I'm learning)
To love again (all I know is)
I'm be oooOook

(Chorus)

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's going to hurt when it heals too
Oh yeaah (It'll All get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve too
Oooh(It'll all get better in time)

(Verse)

I could of turned on the TV
Without something that would remind me
Was it all that easy?
To just put us out your feeling

[ Better In Time lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
If i'm dreamin
Don't want to let it (hurt my feelings)
But that's the past (i believe it)
And I know that, time will heal it

If you didn't notice
Well you mean everything (quickly i'm learning)
Oooh turn up again (All I know is)
I'm be ok

(Chorus)

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh yeah(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve too oooooh(It'll all get better in time)

(Bridge)

Since there's no more you and me (No more you and me)
This time I let you go so I can be free
And Live my life how it should be(No No No No No No)
No matter how hard it is
I will be fine without you
Yes I Will

(Chorus)

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile cos I deserve too yes I do(It'll all get better in time)

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too yeaaaah Ooooh oooooh (It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
Going to smile cos I deserve too Ooooooh (It'll all get better....)

Feeling

I dunno if you were see this blog, i dunno if you come and read?
I hope and wish you will...
I did to much recently, when to Perth alone for Holiday, weather was nice and good over there, ppl was nice and friendly too. Was thinking can i dun go back to Singapore? But i can't i have to go back.
Perth, a slow and relax place, that make human less stress about their life.
Know a Japan friend over there, Kenta Suzuki. Nice guy, which we chat alots on the only dinner we had. During the days in Perth, i still can't stop thinking of him, non stop. What ever i do or did, i wish he can be with me and enjoy the nice and relax environment. I can't stop thinking and missing him. I eat, i sleep, i go and walk around i still keep thinking. I missed those days with him, including the days we quarrel badly. At least i have some one to quarrel with me. I have forgotten how i portray myself to him at the being. I cut my hair, i go oversea, i go out with friend, but still i can't get over with him. My heart just fill with him. But my mind as me not, it will never do me good. But my heart just missed him.
I had become really just a friend to him. Is he really busy with his work that he is unable to reply me? I guess so... Or he just can't be bother to reply me. Bleeding Love, iszit for me to listen?? I dunno, maybe not. I just thinking too much.
I am no longer important and special anyway. But i still missed him. i can't help it with my heart. I did lots of things but still the same. I see ppl around me are happy and doing well. Everyone have their the other half with them, even if they quarrel and break up many times but still they are back together. Their love is so strong, feel so unless about myself.. Do i need to stay strong in front of everyone? I know i have make everyone give up on me. Talking to me, make them feel tired and waste of time. Becoz everyone said i am big enough to think. Ya think, by thinking too much does it help? My simple wish, it will never come true. If only miracle i can wait for that.. I dunno what i am writing too, all of i write is all neg, i can't help it.. I am not motivated by anything right now. If only him... My love! That even the cards said, i will have a hard time with him. But i will still want to be with him. Guess i am blind by love and stupid to suffer but i dun mind... how stupid am i.. can anyone understand? True love? or just my wish?

Pix of Perth...

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Do true Love end when getting a return??

Do ture Love end when getting a return??
Two person pray for ture love, do the god just give it to them by doing non effort?
God make them do to feel for the ture love, The man will give out everything without return expect of his ture love, the woman will give out everything without return expect of her ture love. Both is doing the same way, and un their getting return of their ture love??

If just a person who give out the ture love without expecting of any return? Is he just loving by his own, or he just loving the wrong person? Or that what it really call ture love that you love that person and you will not want any return from him and her??

Is zit becoz of these, that make us different? Is zit becoz of what is written that make the person feel and think we are not suitable? If yes, than should be the person writting is sturbon. Or just want to be the winner? Or just want to let the other person to understand the though and thinking as what the person is and give that person all the love without return? And that call ture love?

Or true love means accepting one another and learn to appreciate and not taking for granted?

Which is the right one? Can any one tell me and tell me know?

Think of the good of the person!

When a person is sick of themselves and the other person, they fail to look back of the happy and good moment. They fail to look back and think what good about that person that you fall for.
No longer love, burden, love faded, will never get back with that person!The person that need to let the person know about all these din get to that person, that person only can get it from the other person to get the ans. How heart aching it was! The person dun want to hurt the other person feeling but yet is still hurting even if that person dun said. Did that person kill another person till there is no second chance to live? Sound like that person no longer have a chance and black listed for life.
How heart aching it is. Human tend not to think of the good of the other person when they move on, because that the only way you can tell yourself dun hold on to another useless person, it will never do you good. Is that the rigth way of thinking? Or just to make themselves feel better? Or that person is too good that i can't give that person what that person one, and is too good that make myself look so bad about myself, i am not that bad i feel guilty, but only good person feel guilty.
To move on, with what ever that person want to do, feeling ligther and more concentrated to the work or study, feeling less pressure or even no pressure that make that person look and feel more happier. And that person will forgotten how that the other person good but only the bads that the person can remember.To get away from that person to make yourself feel lesser pressure and lesser guilty and lesser heart aching. To lesser knowing what that person doing to make yourself think lesser, miss lesser and worried lesser and moving on faster? What bring us together? What make us love? What make us think for each other? What make us feel for each other? How could it be gone for a Stress, is just a word? And it can be so power use in every little thing and is comment use in everyone now. Have they forgotten, no matter how stress their they will never leave the love one, have they forgotten no matter how stress their and how they like each other and good about each other? Knowing that there maybe lots of others things that happened around to make things worst, but who do human are so weak that they have forgotten about all these? And human thinking is so complex that you will never know what their thinking? Can't we just think simple? Is zit because of the place that we stay that make us no longer be that simple? Think back about the past ten years, lots of things change and all change very fast. Ten years different, only ten years that make the person change so much and did so much things. Ten years, society change and human change.
Communicate! Is a simple word but yet is so hard to understand and use, and not everyone is using it. Compare to the stress. Every thing that person do, just want to get back itself and pick up itself to what it was last time. Human change, and no matter how it picking up it will never be the same. Some how there still be a little change. The thinking toward the behave, the learning that change the behavior. Some how, there were be ppl seeing these and not happy about it, and get angry and frustrated that why there is no ending about all these thing? Sorry if i make you feel that. Selfish! ya maybe i am selfish too!! selling fish!! Love is not about everything, but some how as a human they still need it, if not why do god created it?