Holiday Mood

Bore.. bore .. bore
I got a 'F' for my stat.. hianz. Expected!! I really understand what is stat all about, even don i had done the trial test and stuff.. but is so totally different from the stupid test. And had made so many people flunk the test..
I hope that the project will help me to pass this stupid module, which is so not irrelevant to nursing... what are we nurses going to do with stat??

To baby:
Baby, sorry for my unreasonable thoughts and my irrational thinking and behavior. Sorry i tired to stop this kind of behavior.

12 more days in Singapore.. I will sure missed you..

So bore at home now.. study study again, for my last paper for the past few weeks. 'Research' hope the paper is not that difficult, LIKE THE STAT....

Went to have a nice dinner last night with all my old time skaters, clubbing, chill, ktv and etc friends. Enjoy the dinner and have lots of laughter and fun and catching up. It been a year or maybe half since we last met. A mini gathering... Organize by Mr Lawrence which will be very soon a married man..
And Tricia too.. will be a married woman..
Congrats to them..^^
They are planning to go Taiwan, but i doubt i can join them, due to my stupid exam and attachment.. hianz.. if not i will have fun in Taiwan with my friends around.

So hope that i can go oversea, and have my holiday.. I want to be out of Singapore..
But i can't..

Short of time

Test test test, so many tests on this mth. Stress and kan cheong with the practical test. Bio, I am still ok with it. But the stupid stat, OMG is really a headache module. Argh... must study hard this time. Getting harder and harder as time goes by.

Just heard a loud bang below my blk, accident again. These is the second time over the mth. Motorist again, I think some one put spell on the yellow box to cause accident.

Ok counting down the day that my baby is with me or i can say, the day that he will be in Singapore. 17 days more, he will left Singapore to China and HongKong and will be back on Jan 6 and back to his home land on the Jan 10. I am sure I'll miss him very badly. Becoz i am so use to call him every night, and spend my weekend with him.
But I'll have to get use to it, in future he will be traveling a lots and will not be by my side all the time.
For our better future, I HAVE TO HANG ON THERE!

To my baby...
Thank for the piggy piggy, that I love it so much. You know I am collecting 1 dollar coin.. So thoughful of you!! Thank you very Much!! Ya baby, My classmate said, why do the two of us always eat and eat when we go out.. haha i think so too.. hahah

To view in a good way, haha i can concentrate on my exam and attachment when he is not around. Becoz my stupid exam fall on cny and my attachment too.
Good time management that what i have to do...
I guess this coming cny, I'll not invite my friends to my house, due to my parents are tired to do all the cooking and is really getting more and more expensive on everything. I shall have a peaceful Christmas, New Year and Chinese New year, sad that my first of all these my baby is not with me.

Distress

Wed, distress...
two things down, adult nursing and practical theory test down..
But i have four more test to come...

But i enjoy my dinner with my nabey friends.. we eat, we laugh, we joke, we impair after eating too full.. haha
It was a funny night.. I ate so much seafood.. haha so shiok... hahah
But my car kana all the bird faeces.. wah lau.. lucky it was raining heavily in the night.. to help me to wash away the faeces...
If not my nabey friends want to wear bikini to wash my car for me.. hahah

Today went to charles & keith warehouse sales... kind of disappointed..
Very messy, lots of people and the things is every where and some of the things is like not even under them. I only manage to buy two shoes. One for myself and the other for my mum.
Hmmm everyone of us only bought a few stuff..
Today Zac called me... hmmm asked me about the zoo number and he told me, he wanted to go for private diploma... in order to work in the zoo...
Hope he can make it.

Baby are so busy this few days.. din really get to talk to him..
Got to study hard for the coming test... stress stress stress

Sunday

Today my baby bought me a sun glass.. So happy and i love the sun glass... never expect him to buy for me. Heheh Thank you baby...

I know you dun feel like going out on the night before, but i really need to go out and relax myself and mind. Not very smooth riding in work.. Made lots of mistake becoz of my blurriness and my carelessness. Hainz been trying very hard to improve.. and to be smart. But i am always doing the wrong thing. I feel so bad about myself.
Went to watch Madagascar... as funny cartoon show.. not bad.. but i know baby you dun like to watch... thanks for the accompany.. And baby, hahah force me to read chinese.. and make him want to vomit blood... ok i will try to improve in that..
But i am really not good in memorizing. I am such a forgetful person. I need to do things step by step now.. how come?? I use to be very flexi in doing things.
What happened to me??

Recently in love with the Taiwan drama.. 不良笑花 is becoz 潘玮柏 is like baby, and 杨丞琳 is like me.. Becoz in the drama.. 潘玮柏 always scold 杨丞琳... is just like how my Mr Tommy scold me... and i am the one always doing the stupid stuff and weird stuff.. and i am always the noise one, and baby always asked me to shut up or be keep quiet.. haha

Hianz.. I still need to work hard for my study and project and work.. and to be a good girlfriend.

Sight Problem

Today my sight is really funny??
Is not blur vision, but is like the muscle of of eyes getting tired.
When i look at the thing or person. The image of them just go to a side or the image of them join together.
I tried to look away to see others things, just not to focus too much on the object for too long. So stress up with the project, every thing I did just dun goes rite.
Keep editing the slide, really feel so down when doing the slide.
I just adjust the slide by what was told to me, but it turn out that i did the wrong thing again and was qus again, why is this slide here and there?
Really dunno what to do, feel like throwing my lap top away. Feel that i am not a good leader, or i just can't give good ideas or my ideas just dun make sense or i am just stupid. I am not clever and not good at anything. Expect singing and driving.
Other than that i am not good in anything. So tired...
I feel do stupid. I can't concentrate, i tired.. but i just dunno why, i just can't be the time i am in ITE?

Test test test

So stress and tired of test..
So many test and project...
I feel so lost with the project.. Not know what to do with it, and how to make it rite to present?

So worried... about the exam and coming test. I so worried that i can't catch up with my classmate, and I can't cope with the exam and test and project and the coming attachment..
4 weeks... medical posting.. and the stupid posting will be during CNY. After the last week of posting will be exam..
Where got time to study when you're celebrating cny.. and was during your clinical posting. And I have my part time job. To earn my income...

I need to relax..
I must tell myself to relax..
I missed my baby.. and he will be so busy after today.. becoz his gay partner is back.
And he will be busy doing his stuffs and going to Hong Kong soon...
Hianz.. our first xmas and new year and Cny. He wont be around. He will have to go back to Taiwan for cny. I hope that i can go with him, but i dun have the cash.. i dun have the time. To make myself feel better that he wont be around, i will keep telling myself, he is going back home and working on with his business. So must not give him stress... I can do it.. we will have lots of time next time. Hianz.. but who know what will happened to next day.. ??

When are you going to cook for me??

Nov...Mind

Blur blur blur,
I am just as blur as what i name myself.. Just can't be smart..
I am stupid.. after I've stop my job at home.. My memory getting bad to worst...
My brain is block... I can't think and be more creative.
Arghh.. I feel so useless...

My Piggy..
Today make me sad... He did something that made me feel sad and scare.

I just want his heart with me, and totally and whole of his heart with me. Even if he is far away from me. Baby.. read my blog..

Test coming, Projects, Exam, Baby, work... so many things..
Wedding dinner, money.. hianz..
I hate it rite now, when i am not working, no income, wedding invite keep coming...
So tired.. Every one around me seem to be so smart.. I just can't be smart..

I am your stupid baby...I am the monkey and dunno how to keep quite and very active.. Becoz that is the real me... I am just like a small girl.. even if my age keep growing... but i have to grow.. hianz.. so sianz...

I just want to finish my study, and get on to my career and earn money and time for my baby and family..