v day...

Tml is our first v day.. so excited..
The past one mth.. baby was not around.. he went back to tw for Chinese new year..
Good thing he was not in town becoz I've been busy going out,club, work etc..
Having my attachment in ward 55 NUH.. thanks god that the attachment in that ward have come to an end.. Becoz that ward really cannot make it.. The AN there, they dun have standard of working.. and only know how to stand around and sit in the tea room to chit chat.. and only appear to act like they have been working.. KNS... we students are the one doing all their job.. and yet we are not getting any of their pay... Hope i won't be going back to that ward..

During the days when baby is not around.. i been going out with my group of jie mei and brothers.. hehe.. we have fun.. every year is the same.. gathering...
But I also missed baby when he is not around.. wondering what is he doing...??
We did chat in msn.. and saw his mum..
Baby is back now, and he bought so much things for me.. Thanks baby.. but i dun like the way he spend.. hianz...
I want to do something for him, i want to buy something for him.. but the things he want is so expensive.. Gucci Belt.. baby... can you pls wait till i have the money... and i will sure buy for you on your bday... $500... I hope i can strike 4D..
and every of my worried will be gone..
Days is getting bad now, dad business not doing that well.. and mum health getting bad too.. hianz.. i have to save.. i can't spend too much now..
I bought a raoul bag for myself.. $200 wah this is the first time i bought such and expensive bag...
Money is so hard to earn now.. hianz...
Baby love you and thanks you for all the things you bought for me.. really thank you.. but next time dun spend so much le..
Life is getting difficult now..
I hope and wish that all family and friends will be healthy and able to go through all the bad time..
photos to show..

Pissed off

Super Pissed off with KP.. never contribute and want to chose slide to do.. and don't trust mike.. irritating..and make so much comment, 1st dun want to do the slides, 2nd dun trust mike, 3rd said the slide look ok, 4th not that difficult, 5th ok I TAKE THE SLIDE. What she's want.. all up to her to say.. made me so pissed.. she only scare that the slide dun give her good grades.. only wants the good and all the bads to others.. selfish!!

After baby have gone to China and back to Singapore, and been fooled for half a day in china.. It made me hate them more.. only know how to think ways to have free lunch..

Quiet pissed with baby the day before too, maybe because I can't pls him with what he want. I am trying to get him out of home and thinking of place to let him relax..
I went to his place to pick him, and i know the last mins changes make him pissed too. But i can't do anything, i can't force them if they don't want to go KTV. And he dont want to prawn.. so i quickly think of a place to go and to meet his darling..
The answer he gave me was "you go yourself, I got find my own program"... wth.. I am making afford to think of a place and with someone he know. He want to chose where he want to go, than after that he asked me to think of where i want to go and i make the decision.. dunno what he want. Hianz.. what to do i have to give and take.. and i really need time to cool down myself before i can be sweet and nice again to him.
Baby hope you understand why i am pissed that day.
Sorry baby...

Went to eat the look alike KFC with my four nabeis at paya labar.. haha enjoy the dinner.. I always enjoy going out with them.. becoz we're crazy.. hahah everything also sound funny to us.. and we laughed so much that i feel so full. And we went shopping, end of the day.. the two malay buying clothes for themselves and the other two Chinese waiting for them.. is so funny, look like they're celebrating the Chinese new year... hahaha...

Tomorrow is another day...

Hard time and New Year!!

The few days before new year.. I have a hard time.. Hard time for accpecting what he had done to me.. really can't take it.. was thinking to give it another try or not to give.. But i just can't bare to leave...
He came back early, supposingly to give me a suprise.. but I make it become not a suprise.. I hope he can forget everything over there and was just a nightmar for him and me..
He came back to celebrate new year with me. I am happy about that but at the same time i am not happy about the thing happened in china..
He called me in the morning at china, telling me he was chitted for the whole morining and might delay him from reaching the airport, China People they are just hard to trust.. Three person acting a show to chit him.. what a show!!
Lucky he was able to reach the airport in time..
I ordered prizza to wait for him, becoz i know he will be very hungry for the whole day..
He came to my place by taking a taxi, i know he is so poor but still he wanted to see me, but i saw something that i am very happy with it, his phone.. with the stupid photo in it... it make me very pissed.. super pissed.. i question him..
but we solve the problem now... I hope this new year will bring us good lucky...
And bless us for the happyiness..

Went dinner at bishun and meet Chris and Shermine and than head to fish prawn..
This is my first time doing prawning, becoz i find is stupid.. but it was quite fun after i tired.. interesting.. you must be really patient with the prawn..
And Ray, Jimmy, Jack, Gray and one of their girlfriend join in in the later of the night.. good new year start with all the funny guys.. scarying the girl about thailand hotel..
New year wish, Good result in my study, My family healthy forever, money keep coming in to us. Baby job will be successful. Trouble away from us...

I was right

I was right, i know the called that he make.. yesterday.. He sound different.. I am know somethings was right.. When i started to ask him about the wine business.. and when he started to say he has no mood to do it.. and when he told me where is he..
Man are always selfish...
He rented a car, without having a license. I know that country wont even bother..
Got into camera and fine of $40 sing dollar.. he said he did it for fun.. to me is stupid.. wasting of money.. doing things without thinking.. speechless!!
I know something wrong going over there.. I can't do anything..-_-
I leave it to Faith.. I did tell Lionel, maybe when he is back.. he will break off with me.. becoz i have already prepare myself for that..
It always look good in the outside, but no one know really what happened.
If things really happened, i only can said i am just unlucky again. Kind of numb.. very numb to all this thing.
Went movie with Gary and Hillary, and meet Ray and Ian.. talked for a while..
Went to watch bed time story.. movie start at 12am.. so we have 2 hours to waste.. when to chill near by.. And that where i got the called from him. I knew he is going to call me.. I knew something was not right..
I guess i am more immune to all these.. more control of my emotion.. and what to do and what not to do. I keep myself not to think, of what he told me, and analyse about the situation. Just keep myself with chatting and watching movie. After the day end when i am driving back.. that when i have the time to think..
Din really sleep well.. because i been thinking the whole night.. I guess the msn to Lionel and the question that i asked.. had send it to him..
I always said, things that i am not suppose to know, it will always end up to let me know. I can't explain why?

Went to Law wedding, happy for him. We were chatting around the dinner table.. gossips about friends around us. Some how i feel Little sad.. sad about myself.. I am still hanging in the air.. with no future seen.. the only thing i could do, is just concentrate on my study and earn my own money in the future. I can't depend on others. It will kill me faster...
I will not die without anyone, accept my family... this is to make myself stronger.. I don't want to make my mum sad again.. I know i have make her very worried about me.. Must to happy with what i have now.. just to appreciate very moment i have now..

Merry Xmas, another 12 more days

Another 12 more days, baby will be back!!
He called me this morning, early in the morning.. 5am ++. I am sleeping dreaming of him.. sudden ring of my phone and i saw his pix appear on my phone screen.. So happy.. and i answer.. with my sleeping voice..
Same things, he just called to see how am i.. but he sound bore and kinda of sad in his voice in the phone. Worried.. I asked if he alright, anything bad happened, he just answer nothing and he is about to sleep.. again less than a 5 mins talk again. I could understand that.
Missed him still. Just can't wait for him to be back.
Went for chalet in the xmas eve, a small gathering with my Secondary school class mate. BBQ as usual, and made my hair with all the smokey of BBQ.. I don't really like BBq becoz i dun take the food much. But i enjoy to have a peaceful gathering.
We update about our own life and what happened around us. Playing with Ah quen daughter. Then gift exchange, ha i brought a really small present for exchange a big one.. hahah.. and they all said i earned. Probably is my luck.. Got a message cow, soft and nice... hug to sleep in the night. Have took quiet a few pix.. i posted in facebook. The day after, went for dinner with Sean, Scott and Darry.. Tired after my dinner and i went home straight..
Still reading my twilight.. getting more and more interesting.. hope to finish before my school start..

Merry Xmas

What is my baby doing now??
He called up yesterday. But we only manage to talk less then 5 mins.
The only thing the said was, is 8 degree here, how are you doing? I said the same, ok we can't talk any longer, just called to see how is you.. ok bye!
End of the call.. I guess baby must be missing me.. I missed him too.
Dreamt of him after the night he called me. In the dream we were chatting, and i can see him at the same time we talked for very long. I told him I missed him badly and he said the same to me. That the only thing i can remember, the rest of my dream was nonsense.

Merry Xmas to you baby...

Went back to school for meeting, kind of wasted my time.. I am there just to read my story book. And only did Little of the project. But when i saw my lovely classmate, i think is was alright for me to go back to school. Just to have some laugh with them.
Another 14 days to go.. is only a few days, but I felt so long..

skating day

Went skating today with Hillary and coffee with Ablert.
Spend my whole evening with them.
Skate to Hyper, saw Rick.. haha asked me to eat tang yuan. I ate 3, playing with his dog lucky... When to skate for a while, chatting all the way with Hillary while we skating. To skate in ecp on sunday is scary to me know. Lot of people around.. is so hard to skate.. kind of phobia to skate.

I have finish reading my Second book of Twilight.. "New Moon"! Going to get the 3rd book tomorrow. Suppose to have a meeting on monday, but was cancel and change to Tue.
Missed baby.. wonder what he's doing now?
Still hope every go well for him...
Lionel, talked with me about the Tongka ali.. hmm but i don't where to start and how to start on this thing? I am still hesitated about the company that supply Tongka ali.. If is so useful! Why it is not use in the clinic or hospital? Is very hard to sell it to doctor and convice them to use it. I was thinking to market the thing, but the cost of market the thing will me huge. Need to do more research on that.. really, need to think a way to know more about the products and what do the Doctor thing about this products... qustion qustion..