March

Happy to be with my baby bf now, becoz he is listening to me now hahaha.
But thn at the other side i am worried about his work. Hope he will be successful if not he will have to go back to tw soonz...
March, i din do much thing, most of the time i am staying at home.
Save some money at the same time.
Baby is treating me nicer now, and i can feel the love from him even don always said see how and let me know again. But at the end of the day, I saw what he did of wat i said. Happy^^
Bought him for some prayer and forturn telling, hope it help him in some way in his biz.. But i only can pray and hope things will get better for him and for us.
As for work, nothing much.. only lady boss is difficult to handle, other thn that, everything is all right.
And for family, also nothing much.. as usual, dad has his hearing problem, mum keep nagging.
Actually i am happy with what i have this mth. Becoz my bf is treating me well, my parents are healthy. My bother as usual.
Just that money is always the issue. Hianz..
I want to win 4D so i can buy my laptop, or can change of car.. when are the number going to come out again??

被冤枉

被冤枉, some time when ppl told you about they secret, you promise not to say and you will not to say. But thn some how, in this world there are ppl who tell you their secret and end day they will say you talk at their back when you din even did it. It either they dun feel secure. What why is the first time you tell that person for what.. thn want to make it like is that person fault. This ppl just like to assume things. But anyway is fine with that person if they dun want to be fren with you anymore, becoz you also have a choice too.

Yrt was my first time going ktv with baby, but is not what he really wanted. Is becoz the rest cant make it.. so no choice he ktv with me. But he dun seem to be enjoying. But is out first time. Although not very romantic...

And the day before was my first time going sentosa with baby for suntan. To him, i think I have present that i am not interested in suntanning, but thn he was wrong. Last time i use to go very offend. Just that no one want to go with me.
I love suntanning.. it keep me relax.. enjoy the beach.. really..
I am quite an active person, to me, i am like not an active person. I dunno what make him think so..
But anyway not important.
CNY is coming, so sianz.. another year over... hianz.. Hope that i can finish my PRCP smoothly.. Pray hard. And have good business for my blog shop after CNY.
Hope baby and my family and my brother, have good and huat arh for this coming year, although mum said it wont be a very good year.
But i still pray hard for that..
As for my partime job now, look like the clinic has lots of things going around, and the boss no nothing.. hope things will be over soon, and that person will quickly get out of the clinic to give everyone peace... Really a trouble maker..

A quiet night!!

If i never appear in your life, will you still be loving her? or still waiting for her? If have never been appear in your life, maybe you have been back to tw. Am I the trouble one? Ya! I am the difficult one..
If you never appear in my life, What were I am be?
If they never appear in my life, I may not be what I am now.
If they never leave me, I might be married with kids.
Me, a person who think back, a person who life in the past, but yet I have to tell myself to look forward.
If i never been working In RMG, where were i be now? And what were I be doing now?
If time were be able to turn back now, I wish I am 16 now..
Is there any problem with me? Yes there is... I were always feel insecure.
Am i the one for you?
Or am i not...
Do i really love with you? Or am i just in love with myself?
Am i the selfish one, i guess i am..
Do I think about other feeling, i guess i dun.. why?
Been hurt enough, why do i got hurt? Becoz i am the one who always make thing worst.
Is there any problem with myself, Yes!

I never been understanding to you, I am sorry.. I only know how to give trouble..
I never been good enough for you.
I din know what wrong with myself? I am some how lose in the way of my path life..
Did i chose the right choice not to be wat i really are?
Am I that happy? Some how yes and some how no...
What can i do to make life better? Am be a happier person??
I feel that my life stop here.... What were be my next aim now??

2010

Happy New Year,
I wish my parents to be healthy, wish my brother have a successful Carree, wish baby have a successful career, wish my whole family have a smooth sailing year.

Today is 3rd day of 2010, and i have been at home for 3rd day since 2010, becoz i was sick.. what a year..

Hope i and finish my course asap, cant wait to work..
And earn money...
Really bore at home...

Dec coming

Today, been doing the project for the whole day, and was waken up by a called, that make me very pissed...
Always gave me rubbish for the project.. not going to say anything about his slide today. Tml let the rest see what rubbish he is giving again.

Baby are loving me more and more, I can feel that hehe.. and i enjoy cooking together with me. End day the food taste so nice.. with our efforts.
When to watch New Moon, the ending was suck..
But i still enjoy my day, becoz is with baby..
I really hope one of the day baby can join my family for a dinner. It was since so long i have family dinner.

Recently i came across a few type of person, one of them is my colleague. Working with her is stress, becoz she is messy, keep asking me to do this and do that. Where by i haven even finish any of them. And afraid to take responsibility in work, she is a nice person, just that the way she work... hianz no team work..

Another counter, recently know someone quite close, and she really know how to spend where by she is not earning.. after seeing the way she behave, eventually i told myself, i will not spend unless i am earning. Even don i am using my parents money but i dun any how spend the money. I only spend when i am earning.
I am working part time now, but i also worried to be over spend.

Another year coming

Another year is coming, that was so fast..
I am getting another year older.. and was so fast.. Just can't wait to finish my study and start working.

I seen so long I've been blogging.
ok let me update what ever i can remember.
1st, my family have a new member.. A baby girl has come to my family, so total of members right now is 7. Baby girl look much more like my brother, but than one more member one more burden. My bro will have a hard time, as in $$$ will be very tie.

2nd, Baby's sister came to Singapore for study. And has bought her out for the past one mth. And just a short few mths, there is so many things that happened. Baby father when for opt for his eyes. But good thing he is recovering now, but still there is another problem, $$$.

3rd, I'm working now in a clinic as a part timer. To earn some income for living.
Day of spending are getting high and i also dun want to waste my time on doing nothing at home. And school work are not so heavy too. Thanks to Amy Tan that bought be to that clinic. Clinic was small but full of different treatment. And was busy most of the time, is a good thing too. So that my time will easily pass.
Before the first time i went to join the clinic, we have a few staff, but now staff are getting lesser so i am getting more work to do. Is a good thing too haha becoz i got to earn.
El have left us, and Sharon when to gave birth, look like I am the most senior in that clinic but i only work in the night. Christina was consider the 2nd senior, but just feel that working with her is messy, she is not so organize and kind of always make mistake.

4th, me have started my school. So now are half way thur the project. I dunno why and when i have becoming the learner, becoz since like no one want to be and everyone just keep quite to avoid this role. Who asked me to be the eldest in the group. But thanks god i have quite a few nice and helpful group members.
We are starting on with our last year group project, which are going to do on sex education. Becoz now a days we notice that there are more and more youngest and teenagers getting unwanted pregnancy or even STD. Just recently i have a pt that came to our clinic, she is only 14 and she is pregnant. Dr asked why dun she use protection and the ans she gave was, under age can't get condom.
So we are going to Target and young ppl that bring awareness about std to them.

5th Baby has listen to me and change his room ceiling colour, hope it will bring him all the good luck. So happy that he is listening to me, and he is loving me more and more even don he is not buying me anything but i can feel that.
Although baby is not rich now and we are very save of spending now, but i feel happy and lovely. Wish baby all the best and many many good luck coming..

6th, my cousin daughter. She is only 10 and has found a tumor of 10cm in her liver.
So she is diagnose with CA. It was a shocking news to every body. I went to listen to her condition on yrt. She need to go for chemo for about a yr to make the tumor smaller. She is a very strong gal, when we were there to tell her about her condition. She didn't cried at all, she just keep it to herself, becoz she know that once she break down her family member will feel more worried about her.
I hope and wish that she will recover fast.
She is only 10 but her wheel power of living are very strong.
My cousin, she is always very stress and sad at this moment. First about the medical fees, 2nd about her daughter condition, 3rd about the work. It is very stress for her in this time of period and it will last her for a few year. Hope every thing will get over soon.

This next monday

We hit one year coming this Monday...
Kinda of slow...
This few weeks, been busy working and studying and nauing at home...
Went to work and i notice i make lots of mistake.. hianz... and the working hours is so long and there is nothing much to do.. ppl there are weird... or maybe everywhere is the same..
There is this auntie i think she is almost 70, she is in charge of the toilet.. she work from morning 8am till the park close which is 8pm.. she work everyday without fail.. she work for so long hours, and guest in the park really suck or i could say Singaporean suck, although i am born in Singapore.. but is really a shame...
end of the day, the toilet is full of rubbish and the auntie got to clean up the bloody toilet alone and the toilet is so big.. how come those ppl just cant throw the unwanted stuff to the rubbish bin?? And everyday she got to chase ppl out of the toilet before the park close.. and this ppl just take their own sweet time..
hianz...
I notice ppl who work there, most of them have family problem.. is a place like keeping ppl who are unwanted in other place.. but thn their all very nice ppl...
Specially Lee Yan.. she is such a nice gal.. becoz of her size ppl tend to look down on her.. but thn she is more thn her out look.
Recently MJ die... Is a waste but thn i was thinking... that god is fair...
Becoz god know that ppl dun really appreciate him so he took him away from us..
God dun want him to suffer that much.. and he is really suffering thur out his whole life.. therefore he spend so much in his whole life... to make himself happy..

I am not having school for this week becoz of the H1N1.. i think the school did the right thing.. but thn i dun like the elearning stuff... have problem downloading the stuff.. and they never give proper instruction..
Baby was sick.. hope he get well soon..
I knw he is tired yet he still go and watch transformer with me..
Transformer the best movie of the year.. really nice, i hardly want to watch a movie again in the cinema twice but thn this time i am going to watch again becoz it is really nice..